Monday, October 24, 2005
THE LOVE SONG OF NIGHT AND DAY
It has been days since I had witnessed The Siege, yet I remain entrapped by its dominant power notwithstanding any other force. The Anduril’s strength was prominent yet it did not succumb to liberate my entirety. I remain entrapped in the haunted gap near the silent mountains.

Last night, I came under the labyrinthine catacombs for the first time in a very long period. I stumbled upon all glyphs hidden inside: I read all their testimonies; I read all their letters; I read my past scriptures – my once eternal expression of my passion. Once again I remember them… But most, I remember Her.

The memory of the letters of transit is incomparable to that which we had. Though a song of betrayal and conspiracy, I lingered to prolong the bittersweet symphony of agony and of a rekindled flame. I duped because it was the only chance I would finally have Her after a long epoch of frailty and the delusions of mediocrity. It was not my intention to hurt. But in the end, I was the one who became battered and bruised. What an unfortunate irony!

As I had lain in the crypts, I recalled all of which We had – the memories so to speak: the overture; the bridges; the symphony; the lyrics most especially the part where the word “vow” was mentioned. I sat there pondering whether we shall se each other once more and if I shall be given the chance to say The Three.

A kaboom, just know, I heard and could still hear. It’s like Lyna. Our meeting was unintentional but that was how it was. Oh… This Armageddon is giving me another fatigue. Nausea.

Once more let me go back. There. The Three. They say you need to say The Three three times and She must answer back three times also. I long for that day to come. I hope. I know it will. It will.

Before the next tremble, I sang Our song – The Love Song of Night and Day. (With words by Jenny Scott)


“Wrap yourself in your best bright clothes, your red and purple scarves of silk.
Run with me to the festival, where we will dance until sunrise.
The dwarves will beat their funny drums of zebra skins and hollowed trees,
while stiltwalkers perform, and the musician blows his bamboo flute.

And late in the night, the poets and storytellers entertain,
delight us with their dancing words, as we listen, clapping by the fire.
Enchant me with your tale-telling. Tell about Tree, Grass, River, and Wind.
Tell why Truth must fight with Falsehood, and why Truth will always win.

I will tell my father's stories: how the giant mantis fooled Death
by holding still as a felled tree; how the elephants trampled
the leopard cub, and its father, though he knew, killed nine goats instead;
how pirates gambled with a djinn and lost the thing more dear than gold.

Tonight we'll eat a farewell feast. Cold corn porridge is not enough.
Let's peel papayas, pineapples, and mangoes, drink coconut milk,
and bake bananas. We'll dine on crocodiles, wild birds, and turtles,
perhaps a hippopotamus--if only you can catch it first.

I'll build a palace made of stone. Two hippo-headed guards will serve,
and tigers carry in your meals. I'll capture flying zebras
for your steeds, and fill the stable with every kind of unicorn.
Butterflies and salamanders will decorate your garden.

I'll strand long strings of beads for you, blue, the color only kings may wear.
I'll carve a soapstone lioness, a wooden box to lock it in,
girded with sapphire amulets, ostrich feathers, ivory.
These things will protect you while I'm gone, remind you of my love for you.

Your voice resounds like a songbird's, every word is a sweet, soft song.
When you run you're graceful and swift, sleek as a powerful panther.
Mysterious chameleon, you're a thousand women at once,
sharp and strong as a lioness, yet gentle as a striped gazelle.

On this our last day together, let us walk across the grasslands.
Hold my hand and let's walk slowly, seeing everything as children.
Let's walk on the Daraja Plains, where leopards hang from trees, dosing,
tasseled tails swaying in the shade, near villages of tree-dwelling elves.

Glorious, to walk again across the savannah with my beloved.
A lion walks commandingly, a general among his troops,
camped the night before a battle. A snake, colorful and coiled, loops
around his bough, mischievous, hanging over the village path.

We'll find termites in their nests, hard tall towers above the plains,
and point-eared cats, taking their turns, guarding their many entrances.
We'll find the basket-nests of birds hanging from the acacia tree.
Rhinoceroses and dragons for once will let us walk in peace.

When lightning tears the sky's dark cloak and heaven's bird beats the water
on the muddy plains with its big wings, termites and frogs escape their homes
toward the lamps in the nearest village. Spiders dry themselves indoors,
the spotted lizards that never fall from ceilings suddenly appear.

In the forest, fires light the sky as the black clouds unfold their weight.
The black-and-white sacred monkey holds her children to her, and waits.
Love, like lightning hits suddenly. It sparks the heart with blows of light,
its fire extending, bends, expands, beats and breaks your hiding places.

* * *

Remember when we were children, herding the sheep together,
leading them over the grassy hills with long sticks. Your silly songs
made me laugh, and in the evening, you'd enchant me with your stories,
lying on your back beside me. Even then my heart was yours.

I remember your sacred rites. You were so funny, so grown up,
so stiff and serious, all arms and elbows. You went in a girl,
but you returned a warrior. You marched back with the others--
your hair was cut, your eye tattooed with the red triangle of war.

Tomorrow I must go, my love. I will tattoo my head with braids.
My shield will bear a shining sun so you will always be with me.
Inlaid with gold, it will shine like glowing embers. I will return
with lizard skins for your sandals. Paint your eyes black and wait for me.

I am the sun, you are the moon. Wherever you lead I will go,
following across the wide sky, as long as I live and you love.
Sun follows Moon until she tires, then carries her until she's strong
and runs ahead of him again. I'll carry you, too, my beloved.

My love, we are not Sun and Moon. Instead we are like day and night.
The old ones say Day is a woman, who works only while it is light.
She herds her goats and catches fish, fills her fields with golden corn,
shows her children what is just and protects them from the cobra.

Day loves Night, who works in darkness, walking through heaven's milky sky
collecting stars with his quick arms, piling them into a basket
like a child collecting lizards and piling them into her pot
until the pot overflows with lizards, 'til the basket overflows with light.

Night wears a black cloak lined with fire, studded inside with gleaming stars.
At dawn and dusk he spies his love. Across the rolling hills of sky,
they glimpse each other--so briefly. They throw each other kisses, cry.
Their tears spill over Jamuraa. Mixed with blood, they wash everything red.

But once, with a magician's help, Time was stopped and Day stood still.
Night spread over Jamuraa, wrapped Day in his dark cloak and held her.
In their miraculous embrace, the two became as One. Until
pulled from Day's arms, Night sank, commanded by the western horizon that always beckons him to come.

I won't give up hope, my love.

Our love is like the river in the summer season of long rains:
For a little while it spilled its banks, flooding the crops in the fields.
But soon it will evaporate with the dry heat. Like Day from Night,
I'll live my life apart from you, just glimpsing you across the sky,
because you cannot change, my dear, and nor can I.”


Tears – my waters, is all that is left of me now. As I heard the blast of another trumpet I hurried to the nearest dwelling. I fret if You shall still read this. But if fate plays again on my side, sing for me once more. Wherever camp or whoever army I am, I shall hear it. I assure You. It’s a promise – my vow, with all that is left of me, not just with my heart but with all of me.
Sunday, October 16, 2005
SPECTRUM
"A room hung with pictures is a room hung with thoughts." -Sir Joshua Reynolds


The Ring

Featuring Joyce, Trish, Kim, Pre and Danessa









"Things don't look the same in a camera; not like what's really there." -Marc Pomeranc


Shampoo

Featuring Bernice, Eda, Nikki, Inna and Christa









"All photographs are memento mori. To take a photograph is to participate in another person's (or thing's ) mortality, vulnerability, mutability". -Susan Sontag


Hawaii


Featuring Cheenee and Ginjie










"The camera is a magic window that transforms the world." -Irving Pobboravsky



Umbrellas

Featuring Kim, Joyce, Pre and Jan









"Any good photograph is a successful synthesis of technique and art." -Andreas Feininger


Friends

Featuring Ais, Ron, Kim, Tenten, Jan, Pre, Eric and Migs







"Photographing expresses human desire to preserve passing time. It is like a man struggling with time that elapses, and in general – a desire to preserve oneself." -Ryszard Kapuscinski


Great Ball of Fire

Featuring Tenten, Ron, Migs and Eric









"To me, pictures are like blintzes – ya gotta get ‘em while they’re hot." -Weegee


Heaven and Hell

Featuring Inna and Eric










"The fate of people depicted in a photograph and bringing up photographic memories for me is a kind of prayer and sighing." -Jerzy Tadeusz Lewczynski


Virgin

Featuring Migs











"To me the face – the eyes, the expression of the mouth – is the thing that reflects character. It is the only part of the body that permits us to see the inner person!" -Philippe Halsman


King of Corn

Featuring Eric










"Photographer is somebody who is inspired by the surrounding reality and who’s transforming the reality using photographic equipment. I was always inspired by what’s within me, and nobody has ever invented a camera capable to photograph thoughts." -Zdzislaw Beksinski


Ang letrato ay isang preserbasyon ng kagandahan ng katauhan at kalikasan, ang kapahingahan ng kaluluwa - kadalisayan ng diwa.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
TO KRAM ET, TO MARKET
They say whenever a door closes, a new one opens immediately soon after. Today marks the end of the first chapter of my first year in college, and as what has been mentioned, many doors have immediately opened at once. I’m not talking about the opening of the second chapter right away for that would be preposterous; although in a way it already had opened because of disturbing news that became evident in the number 416. Call it silly if you would but I am talking about the opening of the doors of the malls – the door where you have to walk a long distance from where the train had dropped you before you reach it, the door that opens into a labyrinth of books where you won’t have the time to stop and browse for you are on a walkway, the door that leads to a pathetically narrow and claustrophobic space, and the winding door that leads to a cavern of many wonders most especially enticing sounds. Yes, I celebrated the day of liberation by endlessly walking and window shopping. But just when I thought all the critical thinking and stress was over, here comes my new dilemma…


Cubed Squares

Tatlong kahon
:Magic baraha
2001 koleksyon
Matalino Line!!

Magic baraha
:9 taon na laro
Lagi may bago
Ngayon taba!!

2001 koleksyon
:Now lang kita
Gawa Kubrick
Parang diyos!!

Matalino Line
:Bakasyon na
Kailangan na
Ayaw bored!!

Lahat pera
:Wala pera
Ako eeehh
Paano na?


At the end of the day, I seemed to have turned into a low charged, battery operated robot controlled by unknown pivotal alienated forces. The evidence – I almost got lost in Cubao because of a sudden change of route, I almost broke by walking onto a glass wall at Shang, I almost got us travel south bound at the MRT and I almost slept and missed my stop on the way home. Okay I made the last one up but the Shang incident alone was a total embarrassment already! Here I lie now, like a Bob Harris lost in Tokyo, a Mark Peregrino almost lost in Cubao.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
PESTO
Disclaimer: This material is not suitable for very young audiences. Parental guidance is recommended. Oh I forgot, you don’t want mommy and daddy to know. Sheesh.

Materials: Dirty little bastard...
4 cups basil leaves, well packed… Not Valdez
4 cloves garlic, lightly crushed and peeled… Not chips
1 cup pine nuts or walnuts (or a combination of the two)… Not apple
1-1/2 cups freshly grated Parmigiano Reggiano or Pecorino cheese (or a combination of the two)… Not Cory Quirino
1-1/2 cups extra-virgin olive oil… Not let me get started with virgin
Salt and pepper to taste… Not let me talk about taste of virgin

Procedure: If you insist...

Place basil leaves and garlic in food processor or blender and process until leaves are finely chopped… Slap and chop the bitch

Add nuts and process until nuts are finely chopped. Add cheese and process until combined… Add her nuts and process them, very fine, oh so fine

With the machine running, add olive oil in a slow, steady stream… Add Olive for company

After the oil is incorporated, turn off the machine and add salt and pepper to taste… As hot and as hard as an oil refinery drill, oils are always hot, a must have

If not using immediately, store in an air-tight container with a thin coating of olive oil on top to keep the sauce from turning dark… Let her catch her breath

Pesto will keep well in the refrigerator for a week or more. This recipe yields approximately 3-1/2 to 4 cups, and can be halved… Patience is a virtue

Using Pecorino cheese and increasing the quantity of garlic will yield a more intense, sharply flavored pesto. Some people prefer to toast their pine nuts... Use another mistress for richer flavor and remember to sharpen your knives

Using walnuts yields a more woodsy flavor… As fresh as the pine oaks of a virgin forest, it tastes like wood as first but once penetrated the taste sensation bursts

The amount of olive oil can be adjusted depending on the desired final consistency (thicker or thinner)… Remember to preserve oil as we are on drought

Best served on hot Angelina strands with Margarita tangs… Yeah baby yeah!
Monday, October 03, 2005
ANG MULTO SA DISYERTONG GOBI
Fade in: Isang tropeo. Zoom sa ulo hanggang sa bahaging may kalawang. Palaki nang palaki ang kalawang hanggang maging isang disyerto. Musika – The Sound of Silence

A M D G


Isang tuldok na gumagalaw


A Multo D G


Isang lalaking naglalakad


Ang Multo D G


Flash ng camera


Ang Multo sa Disyertong Gobi


Cut to: Dark room. Iba’t-ibang letrato ng tao, lugar at pangyayari.


Adolfo
Nagdedevelop ng larawan. Minsan may nagsabi na ang pagkuha raw ng larawan ay isang pamamaraan ng pageembalsamo ng mga nabubuhay. Iniangat ang larawan ng isang bata mula sa isang batya ng kemikal. Para sa kin, ang pagkuha ko ng mga letrato ay ang paghuli ng katotohanan. Isinipit ang larawan sa isang sampayan. Bata pa lang ako, gusto ko nang maging isang photographer. Mahilig akong kumuha ng larawan ng mga tao, ng mga aso, kahit yung mga pulubi sa kalsada. Minsan nga’y nakakuha pa ko ng letrato ng isang babaeng nakahubad! Tatawa. Kaso di sang-ayon ang mga magulang ko. Wala raw pera rito. Wala raw akong mapupulot. Masasayang lang daw ang utak ko. Kahit anong sabi nila, pinagpatuloy ko pa rin ito dahil ito ang “passion” ko. Natapon ang lamang kemikal ng batya na kulay dugo.


Cut to: Disyertong Gobi. Hapon. Mataas pa ang araw. May isang buwitre na lumilipad sa kalangitan.


Adolfo
Naglalakad sa disyerto. Isa sa pinapangarap kong makunan ay ang isang disyerto. Nabibighani ako kapag nakakakita ako ng mga larawan ng mga buhanging hinubog ng hangin at araw, malayo sa sibilisasyon, mapayapa. Naalala ko tuloy ang pelikulang Lawrence of Arabia. Larawan ni Peter O’Tool na nakabihis Lawrence of Arabia. Idol ko yung gumawa nun, si Sir David Lean. Larawan ni David Lean na may hawak ng revolving camera. Napakahusay! Larawan ng tropeyo ni David Lean sa Oscars – Best Picture. Buti na lang at nanalo ako sa isang patimpalak ng mga letrato. Kaya andito ako ngayon sa Gobi kasama ang aking pinakamamahal na Nikon. Balang araw mananalo rin ako sa isang prestihiyosong patimpalak. Alam ko namang kaya ko. Ito ang “passion” ko eh.


Isang bata. Maitim. Gusgusin. Nakahilata sa buhangin. Gumagalaw ng kaunti.


Adolfo
Nakatayo sa isang malaburol na lugar sa disyerto. Nakatanaw sa malayo. Ano kayang makikita ko sa paraisong ito?

Heng
Gumagapang sa buhangin. May ibinatong bagay nakulay puti. Tubiiig!


Cut to: Isang baryo. Kinamaumagahan. Tilaok ng manok.


Heng
Naglalakad papunta sa isang kubo. Bitbit ang isang timba ng tubig. Nay, heto na po ang tubig. Papasok na po ako. Malapit na pong magsimula ang klase ko.


Sa loob ng isang silid. Ang nanay ay nakatayo malapit sa papag. Inaalagaan ang sanggol. Dumungaw si Heng upang sulyapan ang ina.


Nanay
Anak, kung maaari’y wag ka munang pumasok ngayon. May sakit ang kapatid mo. Kailangan niya ng gamot. Kailangan niya ng bawang mula sa disyerto.

Heng
Natigilan. O… O… Opo inay.


Cut to: Disyertong Gobi. Hapon. Mataas pa ang araw. May isang buwitre na lumilipad sa kalangitan.


Adolfo
Naglalakad. Nakakapagod. Nakakauhaw. Iinom. Maglalakad muli. May makikitang libro sa paanan. Libro. Naaalala ko tuloy noong ako’y nag-aaral pa. Larawan ng isang kilalang unibersidad. Noong Management pa ang kinukuha ko. Larawan ng isang gimik. Kayraming libro. Larawan ng mga bote ng alak. Kayraming dapat basahin. Larawan ng mga nagsisiinuman. Sakit sa ulo. Larawan ng isang lasing. Tumatango habang tumatawa. Pagkalipas ng ilang Segundo, mapapansin ang mga bakas ng paa.


Sa di kalayuan…


Heng
Nakahilata. Nakatitig sa isang cactus. Liban na naman sa eskuwela. Larawan ng klase. Ano kaya ang leksiyon sa araw na ito? Larawan ng guro habang nagututuro ng Math - fractions. Kailangan ko na namang maghabol. Larawan ng kanyang bag na nakatiwangwang. Ang init. Magpupunas ng ulo. Anong oras na kaya? Nakahawak sa kumakalab na tiyan. Nagugutom na ako…


Kalangitan. Maliwanag ang araw. Isang buwitre ang lumilipad pababa mula sa bundok.


Adolfo
Nakatitig sa mga bakas. Bakas ng paa. Di ako nag-iisa. Susundan ang mga bakas ng talampakan. Tatakbo. Larawan ni Forrest Gump na tumatakbo.


Mabilis at matalim na paglipad ng buwitre.


Adolfo
Matitigilan. Makikita ang isang batang gusgusing nakahilata sa buhangin at nakataas isang kamay nito. Manlalaki ang mga mata at dali-daling kukunin ang camera.


Flash ng camera. Tatalsik ang camera. Dinakma ng buwitre si Adolfo. Kinakain ang kamay nito. Aaaaah!!!


Heng
Tatayo mula sa buhangin. Mapula ang mga mata. Titingin kay Adolfo. Hahalakhak. Hahaha! Lumuluha ng dugo. Ituturo ang kamay kay Adolfo.


Flash ng camera.

Cut to: Isang kwarto. Madilim. Nakaon ang TV.


Adolfo
Biglang babangon. Pawisan. Wag mo kong kakainin! Waaah! Umiiyak. Bangungot… Bangungot lamang! Titignan ang tropeo sa kanyang tabi. Tititigan ang nakaukit niyang pangalan. Babalik sa isipan ang batang duguang mata. Maiisip ang buwitreng lumalamon sa kanyang laman. Bakit ba di ko man lang siya tinulungan?! Bakit hinayaan ko lang siyang nakatihaya sa buhangin, nauuhaw, nagugutom, nagdurusa… Habang ako, ako na walang ginawa sa buhay ko! Pera! Puri! Ipinagpalit ko ang buhay ng isang bata para rito. Tinalikuran ko ang aking passion para sa demonyo. Wala nang saysay ang buhay ko! Nakatitig sa librong napulot sa disyerto. Nakasulat ang pangalang Heng sa takip nito. Sigaw ng buwitre. Maglalakad patungo sa aparador. Ilalabas ang camera at tripod at inayos ang mga ito na nakatapat sa kanyang kama. Pagkaraa’y pumasok sa dark room. Kinuha ang lahat ng kanyang larawan at ang mga kemikal. Pumwesto sa kanyang kama at hinalikan ang krus na nasa lamesa. Nagrerecord na si Nikon. Pinunit ang mga letrato. Kanyang kinain ang mga pira-pirasong larawan at ininom ang mga kemikal.


Flash ng camera. Larawan ni Heng na duguan ang bibig. Musika – Scarborough Fair


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