STUCK

This is weird. All month long I've been looking forward to finishing this, yet somehow I just can't. Last night I've wrapped up my shoot, overcoming all obstacles and demonic manifestations. All that is left to do right now is to edit. I've spent almost half the day just staring at my work. I don't know why but I just can't seem to do it. I've slept, I've eaten, I've tried getting inspiration. There's really something about it that makes me feel, I don't know - intimidated? Threatened? Perhaps it's the fear that it's my first genuine feature that scares me. What if it doesn't work out?

Today, after a very long time, the UP dilemma was once again revisited. Do I still have any regrets? I don't know.

I won't be sleeping tonight. That's for sure. The question is - will I be doing anything productive? I don't know also.

There's no question about my happiness. I'm happy for sure - extremely even. It's just that I'm a bit lost. Help me find my way back, will ya?